I remember when I was young and going steady which is not a good idea as far as I’m concerned because at that age you should be having fun with a group and not try to tie yourself down to one person. However we always seem to form attachments at an early age and turn into couples. Our emotions are clearly unstable during those teenager years.
It’s hard enough even when you are in a loving family environment, but if you live in an orphanage and everyone comes from broken homes then there are a lot of needy young people looking for love. I was one of those needy young people and of course I thought I was in love. I was told that it was puppy love and I’d grow out of it, but to me it was real love.
Unfortunately for myself I ended up pregnant at 16 and of course the father didn’t want me or the baby so we went our separate ways. I was advised to put him up for adoption, but I couldn’t part with him. Sometimes I think I was very selfish because maybe he would have had a great home, but I was very needy and needed that baby to love so I struggled through life with this child.
I admit I made a lot of mistakes in my life and looking back I realize that even though the love I had at that early age was considered puppy love it was very real to me and it never went away, but I managed to put it into perspective with each passing year. I will never know if it might have worked out and matured with age.
I do know when I happen to see a picture my heart still skips a beat for that young girl that loved that young boy. I also know that I went through life comparing every man I met to my puppy love and they all came up short until I met my partner now and comparisons ceased so I finally got over my puppy love when I was 50 and grew up.
