I have often said in the past that I was completely happy on my own and all by myself, but I realized I was simply lying to myself when I met Bill. I put up a wall because of all my relationship failures. It’s hard to mess up a relationship if you’re the only one in it and there really isn’t much satisfaction either being all alone. People need other people to share with and feel like they are a part of something bigger.
Bill was the best present ever given to me and I’m so glad I was smart enough at the time to realize it. He has enriched my life so much and I often worry that I don’t give back as much if not more than I receive. He does tell me that I make him feel important and that he feels appreciated, so that’s a good thing, but I know there are lots of things I could do better.
Bill and I are very different, he talks to everybody and I’m more reserved, the man doesn’t know the word stranger. Of course if someone talks to me I will converse with them, but I’m usually not the instigator of the conversation whereas Bill is, he can talk to anyone and he’s so funny. I have always told him that he is perfect for me and that he balances me and so he does.
The world is full of other people and we either decide to make friends with some of them so that our lives can be enhanced or we can choose to remain silent and aloof and stay in our own little world. I am so much happier because I opened that door and decided to include others and Bill in particular because my life has been enriched with his knowledge and personality.
I am most comfortable in my relationship and would not have it any other way. My life is so much better, happier and wonderful.
I thought in a relationship but now I am beginning to wonder..
Just bloghopping! ;o)
Hi there!
Great post indeed! I do think on this subject a lot. But came to a point of thinking I can’t be happy either way. I want it both ways and I know it can’t be that way. I love my wife very much and we have a great marriage. But so many times a day I feel I would be better alone. But when I do get alone for most of a day, I start missing her being around. Also we have become very different and I have thought of just leaving because many times I don’t think it’s fair to her that I many times wish I were alone. When I start thinking strong about leaving, get just gets me down because I know I would miss her so bad. I think I know I am where I belong and better with her, but why do I want so much to be alone so much?
Ooops! Sorry for the book here. LOL! My mind wonders sometimes.
Have a great weekend!