The Beauty Denominator

I’ve been sitting here listening to the Sedona cd that I sent after and realize that it basically shares the same core message as A Course In Miracles. Maybe the Sedona method might give quicker results because I heard testimonials from people that use the method and have felt an immediate release inside, but in reading A Course In Miracles I have also felt that release. I have been trying to shift my perception for years and it’s been a gradual process for me.

Both teach you how to actually realize who and what you truly are and why we are in this reality and that our true nature is pure love. With ACIM it shows you how to unlearn what we were taught with 365 days of lessons to learn how to perceive and understand who you really are, I have all the time in the world. I do know that if you believe something is real it will definitely become so for you.

When I was doing these lessons I felt a sense of peace, but I let other things into my perception so therefore I still haven’t lifted that curtain to find the true me, but every once in awhile I catch a glimpse and I keep trying. I know I will go back and start those lessons again from the beginning, but I procrastinate and believe me I have learned to let a lot go, but still have a lot of baggage to deal with that I do surpress.

A few years ago I pulled a lot of stuff up from my subconcience and released and forgave myself and that did help, I was letting go. I don’t know if anyone is familiar with the 12 step program? One of the steps is to make a list and go back and apologize to anyone that you did wrong or harm to and ask for forgiveness. I guess in theory that is suppose to clear your conscience and open up your soul or whatever, at any rate I don’t think I would do that because all there is is here and now.

I also did a list of those people that I thought had wronged me and that I might be harboring resentment for and released them also and forgave them. I do need to start reading ACIM again and doing the daily exercises. I would love to totally lift that curtain that keeps everything hidden from me and know the whole thing instead of those tiny glimpses. Years ago I was flipping the channel and something a woman was saying held me riveted, her name was Marianne Williamson and she was telling her story and it sounded a lot like mine.

Only thing was she was Jewish and I am not. I was fascinated with the way she spoke and she had such a glow that I decided right that second I had to go buy her book because I wanted what she had and I wanted to know more. The book was A Return To Love and the very next day I bought it. Then I had to have ACIM so I went and bought that to and that’s been maybe 17 years. I do believe that old expression that says when the pupil is ready the teacher will appear.

I also adhere to the philosophy of to each their own. I never knock what others believe because each of us has to find our on truth, but I do believe so many people have been persecuted for there beliefs and I’m happy to live in a country where I can believe whatever I want and I don’t think any human has the right to claim righteousness and holiness above all others. That is one reason as I mentioned before I don’t participate in organized religions.

When I was young I couldn’t accept the fact that God was such a mean and unmerciful God so I refused to study a book that portrayed him as such. I would read the good parts, but just couldn’t accept the fact that God was just waiting to ponce on me for sins he already knew I was going to do and I certainly don’t believe in the story of hell, fire and eternal damnation. People have told me over the years that to believe in Heaven you have to believe in Hell and if you believe in God you have to believe in the Devil.

Well, I’m here to say I can believe whatever I want to and so can you and I choose to believe in God and Love period because that is all that is real, the rest for me are just projections and not real. That’s my story and I’m sticking to it.